Tuesday, May 12, 2015

The fairytale

The wolf came to me in my dreams again.
As she howled, I began to feel my mind cling closer and closer.
The eyes the wolf carried in it's mouth were mine. Blue like the deep sea. Grey like lost anger.
I reached for my heart, only to find it was gone also.
The blood. Red like hell. All the blood dripping from my arms, my veins releasing everything.
Cleansing of my body is what it felt like.
This is the end of everything, I thought to myself.
The wolf, she stood across from me.
My eye balls locked between her massive teeth.
I'll never see the light again, I thought to myself.
Like an out of body experience, I slowing offered my bleeding arms to the wolf.
I was thanking her. I was thanking her for taking all of me.
Down of my knees. Calm like I had planned all of this.
The black wolf began to drink from my veins. Taking all that's left undone.
The moment was still... nothing moving, making noise.
My head tilts back as I enjoy my blood draining.
Golden leaves slip away from the trees all around me. It's fall here in my dreams.
It's almost a dream from a fairytale.
I find myself crawling away from the wolf. I can not stand, walk, or feel.
I am at peace in this moment.
This world is beautiful I thought to myself. My fairytale.
I begin to vomit and this pauses my crawling.
Human hearts. Human hearts pass through my throat.
I still feel calm as I vomit human hearts. Looking back at the wolf, I notice she is sitting tall like a statue.
Proud, she is proud I have released these three human hearts from inside myself.
I find the will to stand. I can feel the monster rumbling from within me. He is strong, angry, and thirsty.
The wolf howls as I rip open the scar where my heart once was to make room for the monster to grow.
Like magic, new eyes are given to me. They are large. Black in color.
I glance at myself in the wolf's wild eyes. I am a nightmare in a child's dream.
My eyes are black... every each of them. My skin is paper white.
Blood drips over my body. But this time it is not mine.
The wolf walks slowly to my side. She drops her head low to the forest ground. Showing me she is now mine to rule over.
As if I have lived in this world before, I let out a howl and three black wolfs appear from the shadows.
They stand at my side licking the blood that drips from my nails.
Wonderland has never looked this way to me before, but it is in fact the same wonderland.

Suddenly I awaken from this dream. My eyes are normal and there is no blood around. Just a dream, it was all just a dream. I can feel my heart beating. Calmly beating inside my body. I look around at the bedroom for a moment wondering to myself why this hellish dream did not scare me. It was peaceful.