Tuesday, September 30, 2014

The people we knew in wonderland

Time after time, I find myself wondering in circles. Always the same circles. Always the same result. What would happen if I jumped out of the bubble. Ran? What would I become? 
I run back to the night I never met. I run in circles but it never happened. I like it all that way. 
Listening to teeth telling me how to quit. What if we never loved at all? 

She smiles and says, "You're broken, my darling". And just like that I fall back into my life. Sitting in an office with the phone lighting up, with the people screaming for more. Coffee slipping down my shirt. My mind spinning.

My daydream cut short by a complaining boss.

I felt like Alice in Wonderland... lost in the real world.... only alive in the world found in poor little Alice's mind. But I like it all that way. 

Looking back on my life, I see snap shots of who I was. Flashing in front of me like a large projection throwing images of someone I no longer knew. 
She was pretty. She was sure. She was lost. She was free. 

She saved me. 

I met many people-- many things, I should say-- while staying in Wonderland. 
A talking flower that would sing sweet words to whom ever would listen. 
A wise fox that whore glasses and always carried a book.
An owl with the ability to read minds. 
A scary wolf that could tell the future. 
A floating bubble that could take you anywhere in the world. 
A snake that would erase any sin of your choice. 

They all ran free in Wonderland but sadly they were trapped there. 

Maybe they didn't have it all.... 

Maybe they didn't want mortality. 

Maybe my daydreams where their nightmares. 

Maybe nightmares are just reality.  

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

The Unknown

Over the years I find myself lost. 
Truly lost at sea
But what's so wrong with that?

I prefer it this way.
I prefer looking away from the unknown.
I prefer not knowing 

What happens when the rest of the world moves forward?
What happens when the rest of us love?
What happens when it's not me?

I never look at myself in the mirror anymore. 
The face lost in motion is not mine.
The face gleaming back at me, she is not mine.

Over the years I find myself wondering.
Wondering around this hopeless world.
But what's so wrong with that? 

I like it this way.
I like looking away from this world 
I like not knowing 

What happens when it's over?
What happens when I look through the glass?
What happens when it's meant for me?

I never wonder in circles anymore.
The circles always turned black.
The circles haunting me, they are not mine.

Over the years, I have stopped looking for the unknown.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Getting featured and all

Some of you have been reading my blog from the start... and others have just started reading. Either way, I could not be more happy to share what I love to do with anyone willing to read.
Recently, like two days ago.... my blog was featured on the "hot and trending" blog, Every Day is a Holiday by Carrie Buchert. YAY, right?! Right!

 Here is the link! Check it out!


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