Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Hello Heaven

Hello Heaven
These are torn lines

I ran circles crying screaming
It takes getting everything you've ever wanted

They told me a had a fixed soul
I would burn if I didn't change my heart

He walked the road to my hands
Sin sin everywhere

We are sitting on ruin
Racing through Oz

Wonderland and sunny days
Heart crys

Your heart
Your heart

"You're breaking... heart you're breaking"
"Heart? Where do you run?"

Hello Heaven
Hello Hell
Hello Heaven

You're heart was poor
You're heart was falling
You're heart was poor

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Ever Thine

Sipping coffee listening to my favorite music, watching people... gaining writing material, I was content. Not happy, but not sad. I could get by on this high.

"When you love someone... truly love them, you lay your heart open to them. You give them apart of yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt- you literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut the deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul." - Sherrilyn Kenyon

I walked into the dark room and looked around for a soul full of love. I never found it. And I finally gave up looking for something that could not be found.

"Your most effective ministry will come out of your deepest hurts." Unknown

Over the past few years, I have grown as a person... some may pity me... some may envy me. I have yet to make up my mind if they are right or if they are wrong.

"Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever ours." - Beethoven

They say you find love when you least expect it. They failed to mention you could be carving ice away from your heart when you find it... or when it finds you.

"Monsters are real, ghost are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win."- Stephen King

I am a monster and I have a ghost that haunts my soul. Every night they come out to play games in my closet. Never shy to ask for more. Never sorry when they leave by sunrise.

"It's a risk to love. What if it doesn't work out?
Ah, but what if is does?" - Peter McWilliams

Wish I may, wish I might, find my one true love tonight.
Do you think that it could be you?

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Spell it

After two days of full hibernation, I went out shopping; cigarettes and booze—naturally.  

My father was suicide and my mother was money… and I was crazy.

I was becoming a hippie… free spirit, if you will.  I was never meant to walk the line, so they glued me to it.

I danced circles around the fire. I was high and I was happy. “It’s the carelessness of running away”, he laughed. What the hell did he know? I wasn’t running away. I was running towards something... freedom. But freedom isn’t really free, is it?

“I can’t sleep in silence”, I whispered.

“We forget who we are when we are looking for someone else”, He said.

I listen to them to tell me how to quit. Tied to a night we never might.

All these people… drinking lovers spit.

It will take some time to get over it.

All these people… happy and racing; racing hearts; chasing magic

It doesn’t flow and it doesn’t hurt

I like to all that way.